You Don't Want to Leave too, Do You?

Authority"You don't want to leave too, do you?"

These are words of longing. Insecurity. Pleading. Need. 

"Please don't go. Please don't leave me." 

Some may say that they are testing words. Daring. Challenging. Yet if they were, it would be less of a question and more of an exclamation... "Go on, leave then! What are you waiting for!?"

But it's not. 

"You don't want to leave too, do you?"

These are the words of Jesus to Peter in John 6:67 (NLT). Jesus' followers had just heard him say some pretty hard things, and it wasn't going down well with them...

"Well, I don't feel encouraged by that? I didn't sign up to feel like this!"

"What does he want me to do? I don't get it?"

"I thought this was about changing the world, not me!"

"I'm out of here, this guy is looney!"

And so they left, unable, or maybe unwilling, to be challenged. To look deep inside themselves. To self examine. To grow.

Leadership can be a bed of roses. The beautiful, soft petals are only inches away from the piercing thorns. The good mixed with the difficult. The reward mixed with the pain. It's hard at times not to take it personally. Not to feel the insecurity, rejection. Jesus was not immune to those feelings. He felt then keenly too. 

"You don't want to leave too, do you?"